Sunday work(?)

So. Working on a Sunday is not as bad as I thought it would be. Aside from missing out on badly needed sleep and time for an overdue project, I actually had an okay time. If the atmosphere on a Saturday is quite relaxed compared to regular working days, then Sunday is positively lethargic. There's no work pressure on the operators and over-break is a concept not particularly applicable on this day. I have been sitting here in front of the PC for the better part of the day, idly surfing the net and listening to music. Likewise my supervisor is playing Battle Realms: Winter of the Wolf on the other PC. And yeah, we all get paid extra for all of it.

Truth is I don't even know why I got scheduled for work today. Only one part number is running and aside from the looming delivery date and a few minor niggles, there's really no need for me here especially with our supervisor present. But I got scheduled for the full twelve-hour shift anyway. So there you go.

Oh, and I'm the only girl present in our section today. Well technically, there's another but she's a dyke so I guess that doesn't count. So I'm just one of the boys again today, down to the baggy six-pocket pants I'm wearing. We shared delicious hot goto and rice on our afternoon break. Kinda reminds me of the Ellfaw, my [mostly male] college barkada.

petiks sunday: HANGING BY A MOMENT

Re-post from Facebook.

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RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 20 friends (make me #21 so I can see your results).
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!


IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
>> the reason [mag-emote agad? haha.]

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
>> otherside [pwede]

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
>> redemption [lol]

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
>> sick cycle carousel [tumpak!]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
>> gemini [anu daw? o.O]

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
>> creep [wahaha!]

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
>> when you're gone [buhay pa ko ah!]

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
>> innocence [waw, mabait ko palang anak! XD]

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
>> slow dancing in a burning room [dancing, pwede pa]

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
>> goodbye [huh?]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
>> imaginary [waaaaaaaaaaaa! totoo naman sina ktle ah! haha]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
>> don't tell me [wahaha. ayaw ipaalam?]

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
>> breathing [ai natural, mamatay ako ng maaga pag di huminga!]

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
>> love alone [naks!]

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
>> so far away [anu yun, long-distance wedding? ampf!]

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
>> fields of innocence [pwede]

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
>> the scientist [naman! aanhin ko yan?]

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
>> lunes [haha. monday sickness?]

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
>> leave out all the rest [ai gusto pala iwan lahat?]

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
>> goodbye to you [oo, gusto ko na umuwi. kaw na magtrabaho ng sunday, pag di ka naman.]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
>> honestly [honestly?]

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
>> hanging by a moment [pwede. gusto ko kantang to.]

first time

Just found out that I have work tomorrow and Sunday. And those are 12-hour shifts to boot. Geez. There really is no rest for the wicked.

Anywho, I haven't been active this past week because of a huge problem that came up. I can't divulge the details just yet, but hopefully I could before the weekend ends (redundant much?). I'll be here at work so I might as well make the most of the free online connection. Haha.

So there. All I could say right now about that problem is that it brought me closer to my parents. They are simply the best, bar none. =]

catatonic

God, I need a miracle right now. I need a new laptop, to save my mental well-being if nothing else. Damn, I hate this desperate feeling. It makes me sick. But what can I do? Help!

T_T

"How come everything I think I need always comes with batteries?"

Again, quoting John Mayer in Something's Missing.

This is getting damn depressing. My spirit's sinking with every passing day that I do not have a functioning computer to my name. I feel lost somehow, like a small boat set adrift on the deep, wide ocean. Geez. Something must be seriously wrong with me to be so affected by such things.

Whatever happened to the saying that you cannot buy happiness?

o.O

goodbye, dear friend. you'll be sorely missed.

Okay, it's absolute and irrevocably final: my laptop is history. My good mother brought it to the Acer service center yesterday and the initial diagnosis wasn't good: the innards are practically fried. Just confirmed it today, there's nothing more we can do.

Half my stuff are gonna be lost. Photographs from February of this year up to now. Ouch.

Strangely, I feel detached. Like I'm just watching a movie and it's not happening to me. A defense mechanism, I guess.

I dunno when I'll be able to replace it. Or if I ever can or will. Maybe in a year or so? I want a Mac this time [hell, anyone can dream, sue me] but good luck to me. Geez.

something to keep the drab weather from seeping to your bones =]

Dearest You,

At times you may feel that you are insignificant speck in the universe. That if you die, nobody would stop and think about you because you are worthless. You are like a single strand of grass in a massive field, not noticeable, not distinct.

At times, you may feel that everyone is against you and nobody understands. That what you think doesn't matter and what you say won't be heard. You are like broken instrument within a glorious orchestra.

At times, you may feel inadequate, never good enough, not smart enough, not attractive enough. That nobody would spare you a second glance because you're so ordinary. You are like a plain object amidst lavish treasures.

At times, you may feel hopeless, confused, heart-broken, alone. That everyone's goal is to let you down and fail you. You are like a defenseless child being picked at.

Now listen to me before you do anything you'll regret. You mean the world to me.

Everything will fall apart if you cease to exist. In a garden, you are the most beautiful flower, stealing everyone's heart, secretly wanting you. I understand you. I understand you completely. I know what you feel and you are not alone. Everything you say matter so much and everything you create is precious. You are special. You are unique. You are good enough. You are too good.

I love you. I love every side of you. I love your personality. I love your face. I love the way you laugh and the way you smile. It pains me to see you cry and it saddens me to see you sad.

So don't ever think that you're not worth anything. You are worth everything.

[I found this in one of my old notebooks written in green glitter pen. I don't even remember why I had written it. It's such a treat to read what I've written in the past. It surprises me, makes me laugh and cry. Wala lang, it made me smile. I hope it makes you feel something too. Cheers!]

gadget conspiracy

There seems to be a gadget conspiracy against me. First, there's that laptop. Now, my camera is having a hard time with Autofocus. Geez. Manual focusing still works, but that might pose a problem with focusing on the fly. Dunno if it's the lens or camera that has a problem..

Anyone, help?

brains and brawns, huh? XD

Since I won't be able to download and process my photos from Sunday's shoot, I'll be spending the rest of the night and probably the wee hours of the morning finishing Michael Crichton's Sphere. I'm more than halfway done, the rest of the pages oughtta fly. And would you believe who the book belongs to? I borrowed it from one of our production operators. No offense meant, but you don't usually find bookworms operating 100-ton press machines so you could say I was a bit surprised to find out Kuya Vergel does like to read, and Crichton's books at that. Coolness. In return, I lent him a book earlier and another one tomorrow.

goddamn thing

My freakin' laptop has yet again crashed. I am torn between pulling my hair out in frustration or chucking the damn thing to the nearby canal. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuccccccccckkkkkkkkkk.