his thoughts on me wearing a bikini

him: atleast yung babae ko may papakita
him: hindi ako napigil sa freedom ng girl ko
him: hindi ako CHAUVINIST! ASSHOLE
him: which is true

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him: its your life
him: live it, love it
him: don't let anyone tell you what to do
me: okies
him: ngayon kung gusto magpost ng medyo alangan na pic
him: its your decision
him: i still love you
him: wag lang medyo MALASWA
him: gets?

Now, is he great guy or is he a great guy? ^_^

CHANGED RELATIONSHIP STATUS (Facebook)

And so the other night I changed my Facebook relationship status from In a Relationship to Single.

Now let me clarify that that was just a whim, an experiment of sorts based on a long-ago conversation between him and me. He said no one really cares about status updates in social networking sites like Friendster and Facebook. I disagreed. We debated, nobody really won, end of discussion. The conversation popped into my mind that night and I decided to see which of us is right.

People noticed, a few commented and even he himself reacted. So I guess I was right after all.

3 of 3, check!

Addict that I am, I went ahead and got the other two books in the TRESE series last night. And finished devouring them both in one sitting. And all I can say is, THE SERIES FRIGGIN' ROCKS! Will post a proper review when I find the time, before the week ends.

Two thumbs up to Budjette Tan and KaJo Baldisimo!

discovery: Pinoy komiks

front cover

back cover

Just finished TRESE: Murder on Balete Drive, the first of three horror/crime comic books created by Budjette Tan and KaJo Baldisimo. I am not a big fan of Pinoy komiks, but this is really good. As in really, really good. In fact, it sorta reminds me of Neil Gaiman's style in the Sandman series and novel American Gods, although this is distinctively Pinoy. Needless to say, I am thoroughly impressed and plan to buy the other two books.

a new start, maybe?

I have been trying since time immemorial to be organized and make something out of the chaos that is my life. Testament to this is the numerous datebooks and organizers I've accumulated in the past--all filled up only a couple of months at most. I've stopped using organizers since I realized that I am just wasting good money on planners that are not helping me get organized in the least. All the phones I've used have an organizer of sorts but aside from the usual birthdays and occasional can't-let-pass happenings, they've remained mostly unused.

Since the year is fast drawing to a close, all sorts of planners and organizers once again abound in bookstores and shop counters. I never really paid any attention, but this article somehow got me interested in maybe, just maybe, giving self-organization one more chance.

Anywho, I am not getting any younger with each passing day notwithstanding my kid-at-heart outlook in life. It's high time I act even a little like my real age and be an adult in the real sense. How scary. It is gonna be a challenge, that's for sure. Just thinking up of worthy, meaningful stuff to put in those blank pages is already a big hurdle, sloth that I am.

Speaking of which, that reminds me I just finished getting evaluated at work. I admit I am not surprised to hear that my superiors expect a bit more initiative on my part as a prerequisite of my position. They were kind enough to attribute my passivity to my relative lack of experience, being new (compared to them) in this line of work. You could probably guess that I let out a BIG sigh of relief having my annual evaluation over with and getting decent marks despite my initial misgivings. Just makes me all the more jazzed up to have a new start in the coming year.

Song of the Moment

"Dark Waltz"
(Hayley Westenra)

We are the lucky ones
We shine like a thousand suns
When all of the colour runs together

I'll keep you company
In one glorious harmony
Waltzing with destiny forever

Dance me into the night
Underneath the moon shining so bright
Turning me into the light

Time dances whirling past
I gaze through the looking glass
And feel just beyond my grasp is heaven

Sacred geometry
Where movement is poetry
Visions of you and me forever

Dance me into the night
Underneath the moon shining so bright
Turning me into the light

Dance me into the night
Underneath the moon shining so bright
Let the dark waltz begin
Oh let me wheel - let me spin
Let it take me again
Turning me into the light

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[Beautiful song. Poetry as music. Classic.]

[Listen here]

getting prematurely depressed

So. I just saw the last of him this afternoon--I have no idea when we'll get together again. The thought gets me down as nothing else could. He's still in the country but I am already getting depressed. Damn.

Oh, and I've had my butt-length cut yesterday. It's now just a little past my shoulder blades. I was in a shock for quite some time after the haircut, but I'm out of my funk now.

too much blood

For as far as I could remember, I've had this fascination (almost bordering on obsession) with vampires. Yeah, even before the vampire fad brought on by Edward Cullen. It started I think with Anne Rice's Coven of the Beloveds (I totally loooove Lestat de Lioncourt), although I really can't be sure. For my English Lit book review, I used (surprise, surprise!) Bram Stoker's Dracula. And sue me for being a conformist here, but I do like the Twilight Saga, Breaking Dawn most especially.

You could probably guess how thrilled I was when I discovered the Vampire Wars app on Facebook. I'm not exactly addicted, but I play and I sure do love looking at all those avatars. Here's my current avatar:


Nowadays, I am hardly alone in my pursuit of the darkness, so to speak. It gets kinda annoying though, in a way. With vampire novels cropping up left and right, and even more fans/freaks lapping them up, I am just another one in an ocean of vampire freaks. What really bugs me though are those who just got on the vampire fad bandwagon just because of the Twilight Saga. Excuse me for pointing this out, but worshiping Edward Cullen does not a real vampire freak make. The lovably obnoxious yet self-deprecating Lestat still gets my vote over the more-of-a-saint-than-a-dark-creature Edward, thank you very much.

back to old school

Contrary to the usual upgrade of gadgets, I just downgraded and got myself an �ber-simple talk-and-text-and-nothing-else mobile phone in place of my also outdated Motorola V3.

Nokia 1661

There is something to be said about getting rid of clutter and I reckon it's high time I get something that is just exactly what I need, nothing more and nothing less. The flat keypad makes clickety noises when typing and it gets really annoying when you're trying to be discreet, otherwise it does the job just fine.

another development

The new Multiply panorama view is rather nifty:

Now I don't even have to go out of the Inbox (pun intended) to read everything. Currently it's available only for Premium users, but soon it will be available for everyone.

Birthday+Christmas Wishlist

Lately I've been seeing some people put up their Christmas wishlists. Got me thinking about my own list. So I put up my own, although with a little modification since my birthday's coming up first before Christmas. I call it my Birthday+Christmas Wishlist. I had some trouble putting stuff in my list. Seems my gadget lust has abated, for the moment at least. Anywho, without further ado, here's my list:

1. Apple 13-inch Macbook Pro

My old faithful Acer Aspire 5562 gave out on me a few months ago and I have had no laptop to work on since then. My photography has suffered, believe me. Okay, so I could use my mother's. But I discovered the hard way that monitor calibration is a MUST if you want to print out pictures. And in this aspect, Mac OS X does a better job with color management than good old Windows (According to a DPP mag comparison, forgot which issue that was). This is numero uno on my list, but I can wait a bit more to have the kinks ironed out of Snow Leopard OS.

2. Skullcandy Hesh (Black-White)

Oookay, so I already have a pair of SKDY headphones (G.I. Winter Camo if you're wondering) but for a totally superficial reason, I still want this particular pair. Why? Because of the design. And yeah, I'll even forgive the touches of pink in it. Haha.

3. Skullcandy Inkd (Blue)

I'm used to falling asleep to music but I haven't been doing much of that lately because the G.I.'s are humongous. I always sleep on my side and good luck sleeping in that position with the G.I. on. The Inkd oughtta do the trick. Plus, the color matches that of my wornout-but-much-beloved 2nd gen iPod nano.

4. Samsung SGH D980i

Dual SIM goodness! This is the sleekest of its kind that I've come across so far, style-wise anyway. Too bad it doesn't have Wi-Fi or 3G. But it still is a sweet piece, and sure beats toting around two separate mobiles.

5. EF Lenses for my camera

My camera is woefully lacking in accessories. 'Nuff said.

5. HIM (as usual)

So he isn't exactly a thing. But I still want him here and there's no getting around that. And you know what? I'll actually be getting my wish this year! He'll be coming home this November (not on my birthday though) and we'll be getting together after three years of being apart. We only have a coupla days at most, but that's still much, much better than nothing, don't you think? ^_^

Monday morning blues

Listening to Metallica while blogging at 7:00 on a Monday morning is not such a bad start for a week. I just finished correcting the blasted forms I revised last Friday--I was in such a hurry to get out that I made mistakes in each of the three sheets. Damn, talk about carelessness. Anywho, as I said I just made the necessary corrections and am now just waiting for the signatory to show up so I could get it back to production.

So. The start of another work week. The tedium of it makes me feel all of my twenty-three years and impending twenty-fourth birthday in a not-so-flattering way. God, I feel old. How pathetic. Hope there's something to look forward to.

we're in! =D

Four teams in a bracket. Six games. Top two winners go in. And our team is one! Weeee!

We almost didn't go in. By point system, we placed third. But we won two games out of three while the other team won just one. So we qualified by default. Three cheers for Jerson and me! =D

playing at work

Haven't updated my blog in what seems like ages.Oh well. Whatever.

Right now I'm pissed off. Lots of different things really, but mostly about work stuff and some people here. Nothing serious though, just the normal quibbles between workmates. Didn't really help that I wasn't able to sweat off some of the angst because several people borrowed my badminton racquet and I'm too nice not to lend it. Geez. Who would have thought I'd ever be saying I'm too nice, of all things?

Anywho, venting aside, I actually had a pretty okay work week. More than okay actually, since I'm actually pretty high on the energy because of all the workout I'm getting. I stopped going to the gym this week, preferring instead to play badminton--the latest craze here at work ever since the Toyota tournament a couple of weeks ago. There's an upcoming friendly tournament next week and I joined, more out of the spirit of fun than competetiveness. I partnered up with a fellow engineer from the QA section and so far we're getting along fine both on the court and off. Crazy guy. Haha.

Went to a co-worker's birthday blowout/drinking session last Wednesday. Drank like one of the goddamn guys and beat even the veteran drinkers. Needless to say, only got home the morning after and with just an hour or so of decent sleep. Surprisingly, I was sober at work and was even able to play a game or two of badminton. Stamina, anyone?

change(?)

Lately I've been thinking about finally, finally cutting my now butt-length hair. Dunno when though. Probably not in the coming days or weeks, but I'll definitely get around to it sometime before the years ends. Haha. Anywho, I've also been thinking of having it done in loose waves. Something like this:


I can actually get my hair to look like this temporarily, after it has been in a bun or braid for most of the day. But then it falls back down to its natural straight style after a few minutes, which is a bummer. Anywho, my hair looks like this when wavy:

So, what do you think?

more energy, mas happy! XD

Just discovering that I have large untapped reserves of energy. How so? For starters, I've been working for nine days straight now. Barring any illnesses or untoward incidents, I'll probably be working for thirteen days straight until Saturday. And I still work out every lunch on top of that.

Saturday night I went out with a coupla girlfriends from work. The first time I ever had a "nightlife" gimmick ever, mind. Danced away into the wee hours of the morning even though I was scheduled for work on Sunday. Haha. Was bangag as expected when I showed up for work. But an hour or so of resting at the clinic and I was well enough again to avoid being sent home by the company nurse.

Up to now I still haven't had any decent rest to speak of. I'm not exactly running on fumes, but functioning well enough to wonder where I'm getting all this energy. I'm not even taking any vitamins or supplements. Interesting.

gym rat?

Been hitting the gym at lunch for two days now. Planning to continue on until my waistline is reduced or I lose interest in the endeavor, whichever comes first. The former, hopefully. Haha. At least it's not as tedious as it sounds since all of us working out are friends one way or another.

Wish me luck on the waistline-reduction project now, will ya? ^_^

just happy, even if i have a tummyache that won't quit

So. After some days without communication, we finally had a decent conversation again earlier today. And yeah, I'm really really chuffed about it. Goddamn, I really miss the guy. I absolutely cannot wait for November, even if he'll be here only for days. Yes, days, not even weeks. But hell, that's still much much better than him not coming back at all. Haha. I soooooo love that guy. Ever reminds of my fave line in Incubus's song I Miss You:

"to know that you feel the same as i do is a three-fold utopian dream.."

Yeah, cheesy, I know. But what the hell, who isn't when madly in love? XD

Anywho, my tummy's been upset for several days now. Don't ask me why because I have no idea. I'm not eating anything out of ordinary, just the usual grub I have during mealtimes. I'm cutting back on food starting tomorrow, but only until my stomach settles. Goodness knows how long I'll last without real food.

Sunday work(?)

So. Working on a Sunday is not as bad as I thought it would be. Aside from missing out on badly needed sleep and time for an overdue project, I actually had an okay time. If the atmosphere on a Saturday is quite relaxed compared to regular working days, then Sunday is positively lethargic. There's no work pressure on the operators and over-break is a concept not particularly applicable on this day. I have been sitting here in front of the PC for the better part of the day, idly surfing the net and listening to music. Likewise my supervisor is playing Battle Realms: Winter of the Wolf on the other PC. And yeah, we all get paid extra for all of it.

Truth is I don't even know why I got scheduled for work today. Only one part number is running and aside from the looming delivery date and a few minor niggles, there's really no need for me here especially with our supervisor present. But I got scheduled for the full twelve-hour shift anyway. So there you go.

Oh, and I'm the only girl present in our section today. Well technically, there's another but she's a dyke so I guess that doesn't count. So I'm just one of the boys again today, down to the baggy six-pocket pants I'm wearing. We shared delicious hot goto and rice on our afternoon break. Kinda reminds me of the Ellfaw, my [mostly male] college barkada.

petiks sunday: HANGING BY A MOMENT

Re-post from Facebook.

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RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 20 friends (make me #21 so I can see your results).
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!


IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
>> the reason [mag-emote agad? haha.]

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
>> otherside [pwede]

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
>> redemption [lol]

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
>> sick cycle carousel [tumpak!]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
>> gemini [anu daw? o.O]

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
>> creep [wahaha!]

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
>> when you're gone [buhay pa ko ah!]

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
>> innocence [waw, mabait ko palang anak! XD]

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
>> slow dancing in a burning room [dancing, pwede pa]

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
>> goodbye [huh?]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
>> imaginary [waaaaaaaaaaaa! totoo naman sina ktle ah! haha]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
>> don't tell me [wahaha. ayaw ipaalam?]

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
>> breathing [ai natural, mamatay ako ng maaga pag di huminga!]

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
>> love alone [naks!]

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
>> so far away [anu yun, long-distance wedding? ampf!]

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
>> fields of innocence [pwede]

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
>> the scientist [naman! aanhin ko yan?]

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
>> lunes [haha. monday sickness?]

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
>> leave out all the rest [ai gusto pala iwan lahat?]

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
>> goodbye to you [oo, gusto ko na umuwi. kaw na magtrabaho ng sunday, pag di ka naman.]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
>> honestly [honestly?]

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
>> hanging by a moment [pwede. gusto ko kantang to.]