doubts

Right now I'm having doubts about the work I'll be tackling in less than two weeks' time. I wanted the challenge, that's for sure, but have I bitten off more than i could chew?

I'm seriously getting nervous at the possibility of not having any idea at all of what I'm supposed to be doing. For the first time, I'm regretting not paying attention to my electronics subjects or at least reading more about them before. It seems I've forgotten what little knowledge I acquired throughout school and review. Honestly speaking, I consider my passing the board as nothing short of a miracle considering how little I know of the whole ECE she-bang.

My only hope right now is the training I have to undergo before I actually get to start working. I learn quickly enough especially if the situation calls for it--thank God for small favors. If I could get through that, then maybe I could actually make this work. One step at a time, I'll get there sooner or later.

I really don't want to disappoint my employer who was brave enough to hire someone as inexperienced as I am. My parents too--I'd be damned if I still ask them for provisions when I'm already working for chrissakes. That would be so pathetic. And most of all, I don't want to disappoint myself. I want to prove to myself that I can hold my own in this field and be the best I could be, God help me.