WARNING: mushy!

Looking for a certain magazine earlier, I instead ran across one of my old journals, the one I had back in senior high school through freshman college. Reading it now after all this time, I'm amused at how bitchy or mushy I sounded even back then. Seems my attitude hasn't changed as much as I thought it has after all, thank God.

The early entries were mostly about my ex since the journal was started right after we broke up. I won't name him here, but if you know know me, you'll be able to figure out who he is. Though it was plainly written there in my own penmanship, it kinda amazed me to think that I used to be that in love with him. No offense to him, but the truth is the intensity of what I felt for him--and I really thought at that time that I couldn't possibly love any more than that--considerably pales in comparison to what I felt and still feel for Franco. Just goes to show, statements like I can never love someone this much ever again are but bullshit because the fact of the matter is I loved again, and even deeper at that.

Not suprisingly, most of the later entries were all about Franco, why he's the greatest guy to ever walk God's green earth, and how I love him so. I couldn't stop smiling as I went through article after mushy article detailing the things we used to do, the long conversations, petty fights and everything else in between. The happiness, exhilaration, contentment, paranoia and the thousand other emotions I went through because of that single guy. Memories I wouldn't trade for anything in the world. I just fell in love with him all over again after reading those words, I swear.

Up to now I still get amazed when I think of how far we've come despite the trials that came our way. Who would have thought we'd still get together after completely severing our friendship and losing touch for nearly two years? Yet we did, and I still thank God for it everytime I think of us.

Whether or not this would end up somewhere, I'll always be thankful that I've been given a chance to know and experience a love such as this. While I never thought myself capable of emotions this intense, through him I was proven wrong. It seems I am human after all.