the ordeal is over, thank God.

And so I passed the Board exam. I am now an engineer, albeit not yet a licensed one as I have yet to file for my license at PRC. But never mind. I still passed the blasted exams and that's it.

But after the euphoria of the last few days has passed, I am once again left with my angst and depression. I don't even know why. I am happy that I passed, yes, but still I feel empty inside. Fuck. I guess you really can't have your cake and eat it too, cliched as that sounds.