I'm lost

I don't know if it's from lack of sleep or proper dinner, but right now I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed at my own life. Absurd, considering I managed to catch CSI and CSI: NY on CSI: Supreme Sunday earlier--just something normal I used to do back when I was home and hadn't done since I moved here. I should have been comforted at the semblance of normalcy, but I'm not. I'm still friggin' overwhelmed, Lord knows why.

It's that old feeling I remember so well from my angst-y teenage years. Though I'm well out of that particular age range, the disorientation still attacks unexpectedly sometimes. Like right now. I feel like I'm in limbo, lost in the trappings of my own life without any real idea of who and where I really am.

Hopefully, this too shall pass. And soon. The stress I'm facing these days ain't really strengthening my tenuous grip on sanity.

Or maybe I just really need to sleep. Shit.

This is the last time I'll wait for him to go online this week. I'll even wait until morning, never mind that I desperately need sleep and energy since I have a lot to do at work. I'll slog through them all, I always do. But starting tomorrow, I won't go online when I'm here at home. I'll just check my email and all at the office and just try to catch up on some much needed zzz's after work. No more wee-hours-of-the-morning blogging. Until when? A day to three perhaps, if I don't show signs of withdrawal. Harhar.

But seriously, I'm getting alarmed at my seemingly depreciating mental faculties. So I'm taking this drastic step to ensure my mental health. God help me.